The First Weeks After My Lymphoma Diagnosis
Two weeks ago, my world shifted. I was officially diagnosed with diffuse large B-cell lymphoma, a type of non-Hodgkin lymphoma. Even though I’d been dealing with symptoms for months—flu-like illness, swelling, and pain in my groin—hearing the word cancer was still surreal.
Since then, it’s been a whirlwind of appointments, scans, procedures, and moments of quiet fear and reflection.
Port Placement & Preparing for Treatment
Two days ago, I had a chemo port placed in my chest. It’s a small, implantable device that will make chemotherapy safer and easier on my veins. I was nervous, but the procedure went smoothly, and I’m grateful to have one less thing to worry about when treatment begins.
Testing to Understand the Spread
In the past week, I’ve undergone a series of tests designed to stage the cancer and help my medical team plan the most effective treatment. These included:
- A lumbar puncture (spinal tap) to check for any lymphoma cells in the spinal fluid.
- A bone marrow biopsy to see if the lymphoma has spread to my bones.
- A PET CT scan, which I completed just yesterday.
The results were mixed. While the cancer appears to be limited to my pelvic lymph nodes, it’s also growing as a mass in the adductor muscle—a deep muscle in the inner thigh. It’s strange and unsettling to know there’s a tumor growing inside a muscle I’ve used every day without even thinking.
Emotionally Navigating This Stage
Physically, I’m healing from the port placement and trying to stay strong for the treatment ahead. Mentally and emotionally, I’m still adjusting. There are moments of clarity, moments of despair, and moments of determination.
I’ve had to let go of my normal routines—work, exercise, even planning beyond the next few days. But I’m also learning to lean on people. I’m learning that accepting help is strength, not weakness.
What’s Next
I’m awaiting the final results of my staging tests and will begin chemotherapy soon. The plan may also include targeted treatments based on how aggressive the lymphoma is.
This blog will serve as a space for updates, reflections, and a way to connect with others walking a similar path. If you’re going through something like this—or know someone who is—please feel free to reach out or share this post. It’s a lonely road, but it doesn’t have to be walked alone.
